Micheal 's Story

 4:10, Thursday, 20th October, 2022.
Micheal died.
He had this cancer thing.
So I hope he was not in too much pain and passed by before too much suffering!
I mean medically, perhaps it is impossible but I still hope it was not too much for him!

Then again...who can actually define for us, how-much is too-much?

I have not been around Micheal that much. But I always hear and see him in pictures and updates from Borhan, Lira. He was their pet. 
I was with him only once.  
For a couple of days.
He was that one giant, gleeful beast, that just staying around him will make your world all bubbly.
I have never felt so much warmth even from a human!

First time when I met Micheal, I did not imagine he would be that big. When he came running to me, I literally got scared and run out!
People say, dogs are demanding. Unlike cats, dogs need attention, require energy to grow them, taking care can sometimes be too tiresome and many more!
But Micheal was weirdly a calm & quiet one!
Like those big boys who looks very intimidating or bullies for their physical appearance but actually when you get to know them you will find they are rather a shy one!

So when finally I was able to pat him, rub his belly, hug him I fell in love with Micheal.
I used to even talk to him.
Leaning on him, half-lying on the floor, half wrapped with his furry, warm lap, and grumble about all sorts of bad-days-rambling!
And he would be there, quiet as if listening to me very attentively.
That was my best part of the day as long as I have been in that house.In those days after waking up, I will find him right beside the bed, like this!

For the first time ever I am thinking, where do animals go when they die?
I mean, religion taught us, people go to heaven and hell according to their good /bad deeds!
What about animals?
I mean they have souls right. So, as long as there is a death of a soul, the soul is bound to go somewhere as an afterlife theory!
And now that I am thinking...never heard anyone asking this question as

And our religion even says that,

Touching dogs is strictly prohibited! Because they are unholy being!

If I touch a dog, my prayers will not be accepted for a certain period!
As I grew up amidst a strict religious family!
So, even though at some point I had realized, I adored dogs the most, I even could not pat them!
Every time I see a stray dogs I anted to at least pat so much.
I grew up having the determination that one day I will have my own house with full of dogs like Will Graham.

Micheal is exceptionally important for this as well.

He is the first dog I touched, pat and cuddled, did all sorts of wishful things, I had desired for a pet-animal. Our baby Micheal

It sounds weird that Micheal was JUST a dog, a brainless animal!
Yet when I was around him, I felt that along with being a dog, he was beautiful, kind, patient and friendly!

I will miss Micheal.
Forever and ever.

Like those first-love thing!
Even I have houseful dogs someday, I will just miss him so much that it is absurd.